T-minus.... and counting
“Pain, you just have to ride it out, hope it goes away on its own, hope the wound that caused it heals. There are no solutions, no easy answers, you just breath deep and wait for it to subside. Most of the time pain can be managed but sometimes the pain gets you where you least expect it. Hits way below the belt and doesn't let up…”~ Greys Anatomy
Yesterday, I realized I had been bottling up some emotions that I secretly hoped would go away on there own. I guess I thought if I didn’t acknowledge these feelings, or talk about them and if I pretended to forget they would no longer haunt me. I was so wrong! Over the last few months I have been trying to hide what I had been feeling….something I now realize isn’t the smartest thing to do. Let me just say to all of you that are reading this who also bottle up all of your feelings …DON’T DO IT! “Reality can sometimes have way of sneaking up on you and biting you in the ass.” You eventually become a walking time bomb…waiting to explode at any minute. Trust me…it happens and when it does you better hope someone is around to help you pick up the pieces (my someone was my best friend – thanks honey)
My mistake happened when I decided to go out last night…after I had spent the majority of the day upset. I definitely do not recommend drinking any type of alcohol during this time…this will usually become the spark that starts the countdown…. Psycho Mental Breakdown… starting in T-minus 4 vodka cranberries. I knew this morning when I received a couple of text messages from friends asking me how I was doing and someone even sang a song to me on my voicemail in hopes to cheer me up, that what was in my head, a not so noticeable sniffle had actually turned into a full blown, snotty nose, mascara running, crazy crying outburst… not to mention was witnessed by pretty much everyone. Believe it or not today I actually feel much better…it feels like a weight has been lifted off of my chest …I am taking a lot of deep breaths and the pain seems to be less.
“Pain, you just have to fight through, because the truth is you can't outrun it and life always makes more” ~ Greys Anatomy
Oh and PS… I never want to even smell vodka again….EVER!
Yesterday, I realized I had been bottling up some emotions that I secretly hoped would go away on there own. I guess I thought if I didn’t acknowledge these feelings, or talk about them and if I pretended to forget they would no longer haunt me. I was so wrong! Over the last few months I have been trying to hide what I had been feeling….something I now realize isn’t the smartest thing to do. Let me just say to all of you that are reading this who also bottle up all of your feelings …DON’T DO IT! “Reality can sometimes have way of sneaking up on you and biting you in the ass.” You eventually become a walking time bomb…waiting to explode at any minute. Trust me…it happens and when it does you better hope someone is around to help you pick up the pieces (my someone was my best friend – thanks honey)
My mistake happened when I decided to go out last night…after I had spent the majority of the day upset. I definitely do not recommend drinking any type of alcohol during this time…this will usually become the spark that starts the countdown…. Psycho Mental Breakdown… starting in T-minus 4 vodka cranberries. I knew this morning when I received a couple of text messages from friends asking me how I was doing and someone even sang a song to me on my voicemail in hopes to cheer me up, that what was in my head, a not so noticeable sniffle had actually turned into a full blown, snotty nose, mascara running, crazy crying outburst… not to mention was witnessed by pretty much everyone. Believe it or not today I actually feel much better…it feels like a weight has been lifted off of my chest …I am taking a lot of deep breaths and the pain seems to be less.
“Pain, you just have to fight through, because the truth is you can't outrun it and life always makes more” ~ Greys Anatomy
Oh and PS… I never want to even smell vodka again….EVER!
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