Just Let Go
"Sometimes we need to stop analyzing the past, stop planning the future, stop figuring out precisely how we feel, stop deciding exactly what we want, and just see what happens."
Why is it impossible for most people to just let go? If you are anything like me you like to have a plan. You like to make plans. I carry around a calender that I write down everything in...what I have going on for the next year is listed in my little blue book. It makes me feel like I have control of my future ...when in all actuality, you and I both know that is a false sense of security because no one really has complete control. Sure we tell ourselves this is where I want to be in 5/10 years and once in a while someone might even get lucky and have everything planned out to where it will actually happen, all the pieces might fall into place,but in most cases...it doesn't.
I sit here today...writing to you as a divorced 26 year old who just found out her job (which she absolutely loved) has been eliminated.. Oh crap...now what?? Both of these unfortunate circumstances were definitely not "planned" for and written in my little blue book. I will say this year has had alot of interesting twists and turns. If you would have asked me two years ago where I saw myself in three years it would not be standing here at this crossroad, that's for sure. So what now? Where do I go from here...how do I pick up the pieces... because basically I am starting ALL over again.
Everyone keeps saying..."everything happens for a reason"...don't you just love that??....people only say that to you when you are faced with an unexpected challenge and they are trying to make you feel better about yourself. Yes, everything might happen for a reason but that doesn't mean you have to understand it or much less accept it right away. Usually the pieces of the puzzle do not fit together until much much later and it is very hard to see the light at the end of the tunnel when you are surrounded by so much fog. Its hard to stay positive when everything around you is changing. Right now, I am at a crossroads....and "there are so many roads, so many detours, so many choices." I am starting over from scratch with every major thing in my life...well at least two major things...love and a job.
Who knows at this point what lies ahead for me. "Maybe I have to let go of who I was to become who I am suppose to be ??"
Why is it impossible for most people to just let go? If you are anything like me you like to have a plan. You like to make plans. I carry around a calender that I write down everything in...what I have going on for the next year is listed in my little blue book. It makes me feel like I have control of my future ...when in all actuality, you and I both know that is a false sense of security because no one really has complete control. Sure we tell ourselves this is where I want to be in 5/10 years and once in a while someone might even get lucky and have everything planned out to where it will actually happen, all the pieces might fall into place,but in most cases...it doesn't.
I sit here today...writing to you as a divorced 26 year old who just found out her job (which she absolutely loved) has been eliminated.. Oh crap...now what?? Both of these unfortunate circumstances were definitely not "planned" for and written in my little blue book. I will say this year has had alot of interesting twists and turns. If you would have asked me two years ago where I saw myself in three years it would not be standing here at this crossroad, that's for sure. So what now? Where do I go from here...how do I pick up the pieces... because basically I am starting ALL over again.
Everyone keeps saying..."everything happens for a reason"...don't you just love that??....people only say that to you when you are faced with an unexpected challenge and they are trying to make you feel better about yourself. Yes, everything might happen for a reason but that doesn't mean you have to understand it or much less accept it right away. Usually the pieces of the puzzle do not fit together until much much later and it is very hard to see the light at the end of the tunnel when you are surrounded by so much fog. Its hard to stay positive when everything around you is changing. Right now, I am at a crossroads....and "there are so many roads, so many detours, so many choices." I am starting over from scratch with every major thing in my life...well at least two major things...love and a job.
Who knows at this point what lies ahead for me. "Maybe I have to let go of who I was to become who I am suppose to be ??"
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